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silvery song
playing in my
head
notes slipping
sinuously
wrapping
themselves
until i cannot
think

i can see her in
my mind
red hair and
full lipped smile

i don't want
to eat
my head is
starting to ache
sending red flashes
of light behind
my eyes
lettuce leaves
and a bit of
cereal
not enough
to bother
sticking my
fingers down my
throat

she wants me
to eat
i'll pretend
to
slipping the
food underneath
the table
smile and pretend
to chew
its your eyes
that give you away

should i write
of blood and
purple dreams
that cast shadows
across my mind

oh! i'm sorry
the razor scratches
across my skin
leaving its
slippery kiss
licking me
with its tongue

is that conventional
enough for you?
fuck convention
i don't want to
i don't fucking want to

hunger lays
sticks of pain
across my belly
the one that pooches
out and that i slap
when i look in
the mirror to watch
it jiggle

i'm trapped behind
a wall of
ice reaching into
the sky with jagged
fingers

mommy
please don't make
me eat
it will melt the
ice

raise your right
arm up
salute!

ice pick between
the legs
icicle pinning
me to the wall
kiss me with
your iron mouth
all ice, cold and
wet, and saliva
body bowed
back in a pantomime
of 'gone with the
wind'
except there's no
sunset in the
background

your fingers
drill into my
arms
like nails
tall and metal
your mouth drifts
to my neck and
i am lost
clutching you
like i will never
let go

snowflakes lie
in drifts in my
mind
icy eyes
peering from
dark caves

sick sweet smile
making its dutiful
appearance

tell me i'm here