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shrinking away
from your touch
closing in on
myself
my skin breaking
out in goosebumps
my eyes like
that of a wild
animal caught
in a snare

i'm sorry
i wish it could
be any other
way
i wish my
skin wouldn't
crawl when
your put your
hand on my
arm and that
i wouldn't
shiver as if
an icy breeze
had suddenly
come along

i don't mean
to
if i could i
would offer
myself to
you
an untouched
virgin
at least to
you
i won't tell
you about the
past
the dark
that lurks in
the corners
of my mind
i won't tell
you about
him
i won't
tell you about
being afraid
of my father
when he would
stand and scream
at me i
would become
small and
afraid and
nothing

when you touch
me my breath
catches in my
throat
i can't breath
i can feel my
heart beating
fast
so fast
a scream is
trying to
make its
way out of
my mouth

here is my
body
it is my own
to touch and
to hurt
it is not yours
and i'm sorry
i wish it
could be
any other way