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catch
the white
rabbit
he went down
the hole
down where
the memories
are dropped
into the well
like stones

a well full
of red poison
time to drink
it up
take your
medicine
taste the memory
of that time
you tried to
test your
mortality
and found that
oh, yes
it was all
too real

we went
somewhere today
he and i
i sat next to
him all so
still
a statue
made out
of flesh and
bone
with ice
drilling like a
pick in its
mind

please
help me
release
this thin
grip on
life
let me
forget
that he ever
existed
i don't deserve
him
i don't

taste the cool
metal grin
of sanity
and turn your
back to it
reject it
reach for your
mind and find
that its been
misplaced
wrong file
i can't find you
in the system

i forgot to
tell you that
your teeth
are full of holes
remember those
nights spent
puking up
those cookies
you liked to eat?
no self control
eat eat eat
like a mindless
animal
squeal to be fed
and squeal when
they finally
want to eat you
cut your throat

can't remember
the last time
you felt human
a plastic doll
with glass eyes
and a pink smile
life is the child
that stabs out
your mindless
eyes and tears
out your hair in
clumps

a plump child
bent over its
toy
claiming it
as its own
mommy, i want
to play with my doll

little girl with
black holes
for eyes
don't tell me
the future
write the past
on my skin
and kiss it to
make it all
better

i forgot to tell
him that i'm
afraid and that i
haven't been a
good girl
i'm sorry
for being naughty
i didn't mean
it
i only wanted
to taste death
on my lips
take it inside
of me like a lover
only it left my body
alive and my
mind cool and full of
a dim red light
that shines in a bloody
glow on my skin

take my hand
and hold it
i want to stop
living hate and i
want to start
letting you inside
the dark play
that goes on and
on inside of my
mind
cadaver hands
and sweet dead
breath
can you love me?
i think not