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testing the
air with your
tongue
eyes dull
and bleeding
red
little mouse

sit on the edge
of the chair
and write your
letter
sign it with
your blood (pretentious)
lick the blood
away from your
wrist
remember it

clean your room
put away the
broken glass
and the napkins
full of blood
leave your
book of poems
on the counter
wish for the sun
with its day-glow
eyes and laughing
mouth

sit at the breakfast
table and dissect
a rose
count the calories
one petal two
petal three petal
eat them mouth
full of light
bitter and full of
a triumphant
laughter

short stories
to the back poetry
to the front
leave your note
on the counter
make sure you
leave a note of
contrition
to your friends
sorry i couldn't
call you today but
i decided to kill
myself have a nice
day glad to have
known you

clean out your
refrigerator
the rows of
lettuce that will
never be eaten
give them to
your animal
goodbye and i
am sorry but
i will never be able
to feed you again

feel calm
smile beatifically
show off
those front teeth
eaten away by
acid from
your nights spent
eating ice cream
in the bathroom
then heaving it up
in a spatter of blood
and vomit

noose tied
to the ceiling
test it
pull up a chair and
sit under it
and wait for the
perfect time
when the chatter of
day is gone
and the night
runs free

it is time
climb up on
the chair
wearing your
black high
heels
wobble a little
red dress on
slut!
hair combed back
put your
head in the noose
smell the musty
air
see the black of
night outside
touch your face
and feel the lack
of tears
close your
eyes
trembling like
a virgin flower

kick the chair
out and feel
that last sickening
fall
break your neck
mouth open

you're done