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tired
of it all
lips cut
and bleeding
from biting
them while
hearing
you speak
am i supposed
to be silent?
is that my
job

throw it
into my face
let me see
that smug
expression
hypocrite

my hands
are in my
lap
still and
silent
they do
not speak
with crude
gestures and
blood
underneath
my nails
your blood

you talk
at me
i hear you
yet don't
i laugh
at the
absurdity
of you

you who
tried to
make me feel
small
and worthless
and empty

tried to
turn up your
nose and
pretend you
weren't human
just like
me
you didn't
fuck up
just like i
did
or did you?
did the
feeling of
failure
burn in your
mouth
like acid?

were you
human then
just like
me
did life
seep from
those
gashes
on your
thighs
pool underneath
those bruises
on your
arms

is that
why you
talk so loud?
to forget that
forget you
are alive

i won't
let you
now that
i gained
my voice
i will
make you pay
for every
single word
for every
bit of venom
that spilled
colorlessly
from your
mouth
snake
coiled
in the warmth
i will throw
you in
the cold
and watch you
freeze
watch you
struggle
as i did

i will watch
and pity
and then i
will set
you free